love??♥

I always wondering tat what is love?
love means what??
even i ask myself every day...i still cnt get the ans
so i going to google to search...
then--> "爱，是幸福的。爱，是伟大的。爱，是自私的。爱，是痛苦的…"
讲完了咯..幸福,痛苦;伟大,自私
then what is true love? any different btw love and true love?
y love can make ppl feel so down or feel so happy?
my fren ans me..coz u care abt the one u love
can i dun care it? i always wanted dun care abt it...its makes me feel so hard
and i...damn hate those feelings! and those memories too...i dunno what's caused by..
maybe..they always annoying me, every day every time...feel i'll become a mad soon
so...i always find the better way to overcome it...
but...the more i think abt it the more i hate it...those feeling is enough to me, although i dun wan think..the prob is still here...i haven't overcame it

some ppl may say...if u love jux go ahead..action la..try la
but they dunno..i prefer to hide it
this fate...i cnt to hv it...tried b'4, but no result...
then...i choose to hide it..dun wan to try it again
how many years i tried to put down...how many time i tried to put down?
5 years? 4 years? countless time...i hd tried b'4...but still same
the more stupid is...i cheated to myself..this action makes me more hate myself

GOD is too bless me...bless till i dun wan something like tat..
can i jux forget it? like i said b'4...forget my pay in love, forget all those things
if can, i really will do it