am i back?

honestly, zi yan is already in rests for 3 days ago....
maybe, she will be back soon...
just give her some times to rest enough...
i believe that she will be back very soon...

okay....seriously,
i'm here!
i just don't want to be myself for a minute.
it's really tired...
i won't say "i'm okay" to myself like before, any happened when i was facing...
at least not now...not now to say that word.
i know i'm not okay now....
but i'll try my best to focus on my bm...
2 days...i didn't do my revision...
arghh...shit!! ><
its totally wasted my time...

woke up in these few morning....
same cased i had...
the same question...even the same desired...
every morning...
how i desired that was a dreamed...
but...that was not a dreamed.
i won't tell myself that...
"it's a new day again" in every morning...or
i never told myself of that..