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考试终于完毕了。
希望能够进入第一学期。
今天去看了姐姐订的旗袍，蛮美的。
而我就在那买了一件礼服，在姐姐结婚那天穿的。
想想，姐姐在外国已经有四年了吧，
今年十月终于回来办婚礼。
姐，我好想你啊！

Just bought a novel book [House of Night-Betrayed].
I wanted to buy first story [Marked]...but the bookstore didn't has.
I think maybe already finished sold..
it's too bad for that...

something in my heart....something i see it clearly

"You're gone away from me,

or maybe...
you're not staying beside me at all.
Even though you stay close to me...
but the distance still seems too far between us"

After 2 weeks ago,
I only see such relationship clearly...
very clear.
Yet, I very hate it...

Keep to ask myself "what for?"
Don't know....
Feels that,
I'm very stupid,
feels cheated...betrayed.
The more I think of...the more I hate.
You're not care about me at all.
Am I right?

Too many things happened between us,
thought that...
maybe it would make us become more closer...
at least,
it could let us more believe or know each other...
but,
thing goes worse...
I'm wrong...totally wrong.
Wrong from the beginning.

"You're the first person I ever care about,
but...
you are also the first person who makes me feel disappointed...
and...hate"

[......]

After 2 weeks more, finally i can get used to my college life.
Feel that...fun but boring.
Final exam is coming soon...only left one more week,
seriously....I'm not prepared yet!
I'm scared to fail my exam and I don't want to fail it. I can't fail.

Not really happy recently...
but don't know who can tell,
hmmm...no need to tell, there are not necessary to know it.
I've to solve it in one day...then all these happens will stop at here.
I wish I can hate...
wish that I can forget....
but like someone said
"It is likes a history book...already print on the paper, can't be forgotten...you only can do is HIDE it"
Hide?? I prefer to choose to forget.
I hate, because i feel angry for that...
I've many questions...why like this? why like that?...
When i only can know all of these reasons?
Don't know....maybe I'll know all about that in one day which is coming...I always tell myself of this...
For me...you are already deceived me.