friend...friend??

The only one thing I'm always seeking is "friendship".
The true friendship is what I always wanted...
I found it, but I do not sure whether is she or not.
Maybe this is my problem,
sometime, I don't event know that what's called "friend".
The examples I saw before is either betrayed or cheated..
what a laughable thing.
So i told myself, don't be too nice to anyone...
sometime they wouldn't treat you as the nicer as you treat them...
or else you may be betrayed or cheated by them.

Until yesterday,
I found a question.
"Why the more best of the emotion between a friend, the more easily they squabble?"
And yesterday...almost squabble with a friend bout the trip on 9 July.
I know...that was my fault. Sorry for that I always refused you hang out when I really no money.
But if you want to waste your money like this, already used RM700++ last month...then still wanna go to a trip at least want to prepare RM200 for it of 2 days one night..ok, fine..up to you, I have no comment. That is your money, the way how did you use your money is non-of-my-business!
But can you considerate to me? Only a little bit.
I said I'd already used 100++ in Jun...I've no more extra money to give me to go any trip recently...
I only get 200 allowances per month...some more the ptptn not yet approve, I only can get RM100 from my brother per month now. And last month, the money I used was already exceed budget.
How can I take out at least RM200 for the trip? Do you want me eat 谷粽 in this whole month?
Did I angry? Nope...but it was just spoiled my mood badly...totally, absolutely.
Then the only way I could handle my mood and anger was just left it at here and I just went away...means is OFFLINE, no respond anymore.

Friend...
Wonder what should it be?