Tuesday, April 24, 2012

[来自天国的交换日记] ♥The exchange dairy from HEAVEN♥

 [一个一直爱着却得不到回应,一个一直爱着却一直不敢表述的爱情;一个在生命终端才敢爱,一个在沉寂之后才明了的爱情。]


很突然地很想介绍这本书。
也不知道为什么,或许它还蛮值得介绍吧。
前几天因为无聊,总觉得生活变得越来越枯燥...所以在网上搜寻了一本悲惨的故事书, 好让自己的生活能够有点不一样, 具体点说是想让情绪上有些起伏...至少这样可以让自己记得什么叫做悲伤吧。

虽知道结局是个悲剧,不过即使是在知道结局的情况下还是被感动了...也哭了。
说句实话,起初我是真的不是很想看的...因为结局的关系。 试问又会有谁在事先知道一个故事的结局后还会想去阅读那本书?不是因为已经知道故事的结局而不再去翻阅,而是因为结局太悲惨...根本不是什么完美的结局,那还会有谁会想要去阅读在结局以前所发生一切事情的故事呢?或许有,但那不会是我。
原本是想关掉那window,但是却被几个字给吸引--真实故事改编--, 结果在好奇心的“怂恿”下还是按了进去阅读。
结果,我没后悔读了这故事....因为它真的感动了我。
再次地深深感受到什么叫做“遗憾”...而它,提醒了我那将要快被我遗忘的...遗憾的感觉。
那是一个非常遗憾的爱啊。
而作者说这结局是个“幸福的悲剧”...真的是幸福吗?如果是,那这种幸福也太悲了吧。

这是作者的后记--
--对于这本书,我其实什么都不想说。因为我认为懂爱的孩子们都会明白我的心吧。当初我拿到这本日记的时候,迟迟都不敢翻开,因为那是爱,是承载着被喻为这个世界最厚重礼物的爱啊。
  眼泪还是这么不争气的落下来了,哭泣的抽搐让我瞬时间无法呼吸。是的,我承认我软弱,我承认我是彻底的被感动了。当快递员递给我这本日记的时候,我以 为又是我亲爱的你们给我寄来了可爱的礼品。在我小心翼翼的打开之后,却发现是一本普通的日记本。轻轻打开展现出来的隽秀字体,在那里静默的记叙着一个看似 普通的爱情故事。一个一直爱着却得不到回应,一个一直爱着却一直不敢表述的爱情;一个在生命终端才敢爱,一个在沉寂之后才明了的爱情。我感动了,是真心的 感动。因为在今年的诸多事情之后,我不知道是我的心变得脆弱,还是根本就是这爱深入在我的心里。如藤蔓缠绕,勒出道道血痕……
  在联系了那个给我日记本的女孩子之后,我们达成了这个共识。我为他们的爱情写一本书。从那天起我没日没夜的写,我怕我慢了,爱情会流走,我怕我慢了,幸福会搁浅。虽然我知道,接受这爱的人已经不在,但是延续它,是我此刻唯一的心愿。
  我做了一个决定,这本书,我要寻找懂爱的人。而我知道很多所谓懂爱的人,其实并不了解爱。因为现在的世界,爱,早已泛滥。而我需要寻找真正爱过,真正懂爱的人,那是不管何时想起爱,心口还会温热的人。
  叶子说我不应该这样做这本书,说我会得罪喜欢我的读者。可是我的确这么固执,就算是还愿吧。限量版的目的,我希望大家都能明白。
  如果当你看过了这个故事,我希望你和我一样,想起,胸口依然温热!.--

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PS: 如果这部小说拍成电影应该会不错。

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

[世界上最遥远的距离]

有一首诗我个人还蛮喜欢的。
但我不太清楚这首诗是来自于泰戈尔还是张小娴。

世界上最遥远的距离,不是生与死,而是 我就站在你面前,你却不知道我爱你。
世界上最遥远的距离, 不是 我就站在你面前 , 但你不知道我爱你 , 而是 明明知道彼此相爱, 却不能在一起。
世界上最遥远的距离, 不是 明明知道彼此相爱 却不能在一起 , 而是 明明无法抵挡这股思念 , 却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里 。
世界上最遥远的距离 , 不是 明明无法抵挡这股思念 , 却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里 , 而是 用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人, 掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠。

The furthest distance in the world ,Is not between life and death ,But when I stand in front of you ,Yet you don't know that I love you . 
The furthest distance in the world , Is not when I stand in front of you ,Yet you can't see my love ,But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both ,Yet can't be together.      
The furthest distance in the world , Is not being apart while being in love , But when plainly can't resist the yearning , Yet pretending you have never been in my heart.
The furthest distance in the world , Is not when painly can't resist the yearning , yet pretending you have never been in my heart , but using one's indifferent heart , To dig an uncrossable river for the one who loves you.

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Saturday, March 31, 2012

--宫崎骏--

突然想说说这位漫画家。
刚看完[天空之城],是一部不错的动漫。
我知道他应该就是看了他的[哈尔的移动城堡]吧,也是一部不错的动漫。
不过,其实我第一部看的不是[移动城堡]而是[龙猫]再来的就是[千与千寻]。

曾经梦过一个梦。
而那个梦是关于到[天空之城]的,不过我梦里的天空之城并不是这部动漫里的天空之城。
那时在想,如果这个世界上,在天空上真的有座城堡的话,那有多好...那么这个世界应该会变得不同了吧?!
今天看了他的另一部作品,[再见,营火虫]。
erm...对我而言,是有点闷啦,不过也有点悲。

--久石让--
哦...这位是担任宫崎骏所有作品的音乐制作。
其实我真正想说的就是他在里面的音乐。
当然,我所看的作品并不多...所以所听到的音乐都是有限。
不过,在这几部电影里面...我个人还是比较喜欢[哈尔的移动城堡]和[天空之城]。
还蛮喜欢听这两部电影的主题。

Thursday, March 15, 2012

dream

I got a dream...
A dream of being a singer since I was form1, and yet it's a dream which can't never achieve...should I say like this?
I love to sing...always, and all of my close friends also know that even my family too.

The astro singing competition is coming soon...but it's just an audition.
Just thinking that...should I take part? or shouldn't I?
Last year, my brother asked me to...but I refused.
How about this year then?
I want...maybe.
But...I'm scared. Scared of I'd a long time didn't stand on the stage to perform.
But I still remember that first time I got the sound of cheering from my seniors...and I didn't even know who are them actually. That was first time...and felt really great.

Long time ago, someone told me...
" I'll support you, if no one is supporting you...if has, then I want to be the first one who supports you."
I was really happy when I heard it...he WAS my first supporter. But NOW...does him?

My dream...
Should I?

Friday, March 2, 2012

A present

Well....finally exam is over, sem2 is end and feel great for no class on Saturday anymore.
Honestly, I'm really worried for my sem2 result...what's the result will I get?
3.9? No confidence at all...still haven't told someone that my sem1 result, don't know how should I tell...

ok...get to the point.
Today...went to kepong jusco with my mom, and I bought myself a present.
A PS2...
and I bought it for RM490...
hohoho...is cheap.
Actually, I wanted to buy it for a long time, and finally I bought it today.
My mom asked me, why don't you buy a PS3?
GOSH! PS3 is damn expensive arghhhhhh! >< only buy a game almost can lead me to bankrup...some more, ps3 doesn't has the game that I wanted to play.
And I'll spend my 2 weeks holiday with my games...

Next planning...
beach at somewhere...
so...START TO RE-SAVE MONEY FROM NOW ON!!

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Result

Finally I got my sem1 result yesterday...

GPA=3.91
CGPA=3.43

Satisfied with my GPA, but I don't satisfy with my CGPA...
The moment I got my result, I got no feeling...felt nothing...but then, felt that a little bit disappointed, I don't really satisfy with my CGPA point.
Then, I asked my self...
"how do I increase my CGPA point?"
"if my GPA point is dropped in this semester, next semester some more my future semester...how my CGPA point will become?"
Then...I heard a sound, "he" said...
"4.0 in your each semester"
yup...this is what I should do, the only one way to increase my point and it is also my promise.

Should I tell you my sem1 result??

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

-That man,那个男人-

한 남자가 그대를 사랑합니다
有个男人爱着你
그 남자는 열심히 사랑합니다
那个男人努力地爱着你
매일 그림자처럼 그대를 따라다니며
每天像影子一样跟着你
그 남자는 웃으며 울고있어요
那个男人微笑着哭了
얼마나 얼마나 더 너를
还需要多久 多久
이렇게 바라만 보며 혼자
一直这样 只是 独自地 凝望着你
이 바람같은 사랑
这如风般的爱
이 거지같은 사랑 계속해야 니가 나를 사랑 하겠니
这乞丐般的爱 继续下去 你会爱上我吗
조금만 가까이 와 조금만
稍微靠近我一点 就一点
한발 다가가면 두 발 도망가는
靠近一步 却又逃开两步
널 사랑하는 난
爱着你的我
지금도 옆에 있어
现在依然就在你身边
그 남잔 웁니다
他在哭

그 남자는 성격이 소심합니다
那个男人的性格很谨慎
그래서 웃는 법을 배웠답니다
因此要学习微笑的方法
친한 친구에게도 못하는 얘기가 많은
有很多对好朋友也不能说的话
그 남자의 마음은 상처투성이
那个男人的心充满泪水
그래서 그 남자는 그댈
因为那个男人像以前一样
널 사랑 했데요 똑같아서
深爱着你
또 하나같은 바보 또 하나같은 바보
像傻瓜一样 像傻瓜一样
한번 나를 안아주고 가면 안되요
就一次 抱抱我再走可以吗
난 사랑받고 싶어 그대여
我想得到你的爱
매일 속으로만 가슴 속으로만 소리를 지르며
每天只在心里 只在内心大声呼喊
그 남자는 오늘도 그 옆에 있데요
那个男人今天还在你的身边
남자가 나라는 걸 아나요
你知道那个男人是我吗

알면서도 이러는 건 아니죠
不会是明明知道却还这样吧
모를꺼야 그댄 바보니까
你不会知道的 因为你是傻瓜
얼마나 얼마나 더 너를
还需要多久 多久
이렇게 바라만 보며 혼자
一直这样 只是 独自地 凝望着你
이 바보같은 사랑 이 거지같은 사랑
这如风般的爱 这乞丐般的爱
계속해야 니가 나를 사랑 하겠니
继续下去 你会爱上我吗
조금만 가까이 와 조금만
稍微靠近我一点 就一点
한발 다가가면 두 발 도망가는
靠近一步 却又逃开两步
널 사랑하는 난 지금도 옆에 있어
爱着你的我 现在依然就在你身边
그 남잔 웁니다
他在哭


突然心血来潮想发首歌词。
[那个男人],知道这首歌的人应该不少吧,但应该大部分的人都是听杨宗纬唱的吧?
老实说,我没听过杨宗纬唱的版本...但我知道有这首歌。
只是在某天的某个电视频道听到韩文版的[那个男人],才知道原来这首歌是一部韩剧(秘密花园)里的歌曲,而唱这首歌的是玄彬...后来是杨宗纬翻唱。
听了韩版的再去听听杨宗纬唱的,发现我还是比较喜欢玄彬唱的那个版本。

最近都比较喜欢听那些自己听不懂语言的歌曲(日,韩),反而那些听得懂的吸引不到我。==