dye hair~

actually i already dyed my hair on last 4 days ago at my fren's home..
she helped me to dye, coz the price is expensive if i going to salon...it's more save my money if i ask my fren help me to dye.However we failed it...coz不上色, my hair was still black..seemed like no changed after i dyed...
then, i tried by myself...dyed my hair by myself in this afternoon..after i realized the step in the instruction book then i begun my "work"..
i asked my mom for taking a towel then put it onto my shoulder...worn the glove then mixed the pigment, after tat begun dying..

i dunno begun from where actually,this was my 1st time i dyed my hair by myself...then i jux told myself, jux do it~
after my hair became very wet..finished the pigment..and waiting for 30 minutes..
i tot would fail again...but when i washed my hair i saw got a bit brown colour...changed, but not really clear..whatever, it's better than b'4..

my hair...almost destroyed recently..
i did straight hair last week...4 days couldn't wash hair~
but i jux 2 days...coz beh ta han! oily and itchy...><''
i like the feeling(my hair)..is soft..^.^

my teacher told me...she already helped me to register piano test...practical and theory~
both are oso grade5..on August..
so...must pass it~
won't scare..no nervous..all will be perfect! i got confident..^^
coz my 1st time test oso like this..no feeling..hehe..

[一路上有你]

你知道吗
爱你并不容易
还需要很多勇气
是天意吧
好多话说不出去
就是怕你负担不起

你相信吗
这一生遇见你
是上辈子我欠你的
是天意吧
让我爱上你
才又让你离我而去

也许轮回里早已注定
今生就该我还给你
一颗心在风雨里
飘来飘去
都是为你

一路上有你
苦一点也愿意
就算是为了分离与我相遇
一路上有你
痛一点也愿意
就算这辈子注定要和你分离

就算只能在梦里拥抱你

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张学友的[一路上有你]。我曾经的心声代表作之一。
每次听，都会勾起所有过去一年的回忆。但我听的并不是原唱所唱的。
这首是其中之一吧，不同的歌，想到的却是不同的事情。
另一首..光良的[约定]。你还记得我们的约定吗？
不过，还是算了吧...忘掉它，因为那是不会实现的。
就连下一秒会发生什么事都不知道了，更何况是八年后？或许在多三到四年，我们都忘记有这回事了。
其实从一开始，自己根本就没有抱着期望去看待，因为知道是没有结果。从一开始就知道会变成这样，差别在于迟早而已。
有的时候还蛮佩服自己的直觉的，因为它在某些事情上总是准到我自己都不敢相信。（当然，在考试上绝对派不上用场）
该怎样去面对，我不知道。只是不断地问自己那样做是对的吗？得到的答案是，即使是错，也得这么做。因为那是唯一的出口，我没得选择。问题是忍心吗？遇到这个问题，我就会告诉自己说。。即使不忍心也必须忍下心来。或许到最后，我只会说一句“对不起”。

something i always wondering.

jux see my fren's blog..then got some something happened btw she and someone recently..
what i want to say is, i wondering why love can make a person become like another person?
like double-face person...then i jux cnt believe tat, tat person is my fren. I may dunno her well at all...i cnt say what she did, but sometime i felt tat, she really undue to call someone like tat.

爱情，真的有那个必要去装可怜吗？难道那样有好处？
我从不认为。就算得到那又怎样？我只能说，对方给你的不是爱而是同情/怜悯！可悲
醒醒吧，他已经不爱你了，为何还要逗留在以前的回忆里？
我并没有要帮谁的意识，只是真的觉得过分了。

看过自己的朋友被朋友背叛的例子很多。
我好奇的是，为什么到最后她们还是选择了原谅？表面虽看起来很要好，但其实自己的内心还是有根刺。做到那么辛苦，那原谅来干麻？？
如果那是我，我不会。那是我的地雷，也是我的底线，即使是自己的好朋友...也都一样，不能原谅。

maybe it's same when they facing love. Betraying, lying...all because of they wanna get the result they wants. But tat's a foolish and wrongly acction
someone asked me, do you hv going to find a bf? then i ans him...no. but i din tell him the reason...the reason is, i dunwan to find...felt tired, not interesting and i already forgotten what's the feeling of love. And now, i'm enjoying my single life..=) no thinking such thing again..

1st time driving i felt like HELL!!

went to learn driving yesterday...and tat was 1st time i felt like hell when i driving inside the car!
what i knew was i'm damn scare driving alone without teaching, and tat was 2nd time i drove in the training place...driving in not really skillful situation and almost knocked..between, it was felt like playing碰碰车 when i turned the car...bad case! damn scared..
especially going up to the hill...OMG! i couldn't handle the oil and "glak" (sorry, i dunno how to spell)...but it was felling fun when i did it..
i'll do more well on next time!

going to sunway with my bro and his "friend" today...
and today i only know tat he got a gf...O.o
he ask me to go to sunway with his friend, i though really is his friend (boy)...but when we arrive there...i only know tat is a girl..he doesn't say any thing to me, then i just guess what is the relation between both of them...feel like a couple. After tat he ask me dun tell dad and mom, isn't time to tell them now...then i can confirm tat..i'm right! haha..
i say i already know what is the relation between both of them...then he answer me, can't we just only friend? then i just say, both of your action gives me feel not only like friend...
actually...i already found tat, he got a gf..but i just cnt confirm tat is true or not..his action got a bit different recently. Then i can say tat, my 6th sense is correct! I may is the 1st person who know tat in my family...
and i...do 3 hours d spotlight today..=='' i dun like to do spotlight actually...i did it b'4, my sis and my two bro...the only one i can say is..boring~

HTC DESIRE HD

HTC DESIRE HD..oh, i always wanted this hp...but its too expensive to me..almost RM2000++..syok! another hp i want is iphone 4...
i think this hp will cheaper than DESIRE HD, i almost get iphone 4 from my 2nd bro..but he said SPM need to get straight A then he only buy this hp to me..the worst is tat day he told me such thing already left 2 or 3 subjects to go..then no hope now~
but he promised me, he will buy one thing to me...depends on me what i want if i get 1A..my sis too..^^ i always wanted a flute for a long time...but its expensive to me too, RM1900++ until RM2000++ for the most cheaper price..my sis promised to buy one to me..haha!great!

CNY is coming soon..still got 1 more week..so fast already 1 year.
i may back to ipoh and sekinchang or will stay at home..spend the time at home...if my bro has some event, need to use car..then i'll spend my cny's time at home vf my dad and mom for sure..

i'm bothering! bothering for my result...will come out on mac...if i fail it, i'll be a mad..
furthermore...i still get nth now! damn it...what should i choose?

期盼的五月

五月，开学的日子。会顺利地进入大学吗？我希望会。
可是，到现在还是没想到要选什么科。烦恼
进入大学，生活又会是怎样的？我好好奇，它...会否像我中一那年那样？等待着我的又会是什么？

幸福，真的得来不易。而我，到是忘了那种滋味了。
我该到哪去寻找那曾经有过的感觉？
曾经...同一个人，给过我两次那种感觉，但同一个人，却也伤了我无数次。
对我而言，幸福其实很简单，它根本就不需要刻意地去表现出来。然而，越简单的东西却是越难得到的。
我怨过，更想过恨。无论自己的内心是多么地挣扎，告诉自己不能这么做，有多少个理由不能...我，还是选择了恨。因为我讨厌那种心痛，如果...这是个好的抒发管道，我宁愿一试。
昨晚，突然想起以前的事情。它们给我的，既是怀念又是心痛。很多时候不想去想回就是这个原因...也因为我会讨厌。
今天，无意间明白到爱的意识。也不知道为什么，只是能够回答到自己的问题。很意外。

1st time learn driving

1st time learn driving today..
after the teacher teach me the skill...he ask me to drive on sri bintang d small road and then drive to manjarala..the big big road~
haha...is FUN..^^ and very qi kek but the car conked out on the big road~><''
i tot he will scold me..but he doesn't~

Sonic Game

nth to do in these few days...
i already watched 2 HK drama...and now watching 3rd HK drama...damn boring!

i found this game by google on a whim...
this game i quite like to play when i was child..
nice game but hd a long time din play it...lost the CD so couldn't play any more...
i like to play supper mario too...i heard other ppl said these 2 games are brother..i think so~

Diablo...i wonder why this game would make me scare when i was child?? I rare play this game vf my cousin...but every time they came my home..they would play this game vf my bro...then i jux sat beside them..saw them playing...nice game too...i miss this game now, but lost this CD too...and now already Diablo III...thinking to find PS's Diablo..hehe

i bought this book very long time...b'coz of SPM so i rarely read it..
erm..not bad but boring...
i was wondering why this book would talk abt something like 看相 b'4 70 pages?? i felt sleepy when i reading those things...
but now...haha, nice...talk abt body language..it seems like one of the HK drama [读心神探]...something abt psychology...feel interesting..

Furthermore...i oso continue doing my Add Maths when i free~all my books already threw away...erm no..is donated~jux leave my add maths book..
2moro going to learn car...hmm, good luck to me~~

@7/1/11@ continue my piano class

finally continue my piano class today d..
and today i only realize tat i already grade 5...==''
still so slow..
today my teacher asks me to do my grade 4 theory exercise for revision...
but i...totally forgotten all the theory..><'' i found these in my theory book..these is last 2 years i took my 1st theory test i did d note...

most in there are Italian and its meaning...

i'm still wondering when can i get my theory's certificate?
my teacher call me keep remind her..><''

courses list of TARC COLLAGE...

today...i continue my considering for my study SOON
then...i get nth in the whole day's considering...WTF!><'' arghh!! really want to take A-level? the one i want to study i cnt study..coz tat course want sn class student only can study..i'm not sn class student... regret tat y i din try to apply to study in sn class when i was F4..sad..
i feel tat my head wanna explosion soon...haizz...><


went to mid-valley on wed vf poly alone purposely jux to watch Tron~
we went there at 10.00++ am...then arrived there already 11.00am..wasted the time jux to wait the stupid train..
after we got the tickets...still got 2++ hours only started the movie..
what we did in these 2++ hours?...erm...1st, went to MPH then walked in the mall...from G1 till cinema...and ate baskin robbins ^^ hehe...
(but why i feel like we were doing so po?)
i saw many fren work in there..vincci, nose, japanese restaurant and 小台湾...
b'4 we went to watch movie..we went to pet shop to see the pet...ei~really smelly ler...><''
tat was 1st time i watched movie felt headache...maybe i didn't get much sleep tat day
after the movie we went to MCD for lunch..then went back home at 5.00++pm..
opss...there was raining heavily tat day...
TRON...this movie is not bad but got a bit xian...i dun like the ending actually~

承诺

“承诺”这两个字应该对很多人再也熟悉不过吧?
人与人之间都会有个承诺的...
但，我从来都不相信承诺这样东西。
因为我知道对方不会刻意去记这些事情，明知道自己会失望那为何还要抱着期望去看待？
也就因为这样，自己也不会随便对别人作出承诺，除非我有把握能够实现。
真的不相信吗？是的，我不相信。但，偶尔还是会感到失落，多少还是会有一点期望的。

刚从朋友的部落格看到她说她和她前男友的一些事情和她的感受。
我很好奇，一个彼此曾经许下的承诺真的有那么重要吗？
分了就等于过去了...既然过去了，那为何还要在意过去的承诺？
也许心痛，也许还爱着对方。。。但，爱又怎样？心痛有怎样？对方心里根本就已经不再爱了，他心里爱的是另一个女生。
“我不会离开你。。。不会不理你。” 多么熟悉的一句话...

很多时候，我们都不能预测下一秒会有什么事情发生，唯一能够做的就是珍惜当下。就算以后真的发生什么事，但至少自己曾经珍惜过，那样就不会增加自己的遗憾才不会后悔当初没珍惜。不是吗？
这是我领略到的。

love??♥

I always wondering tat what is love?
love means what??
even i ask myself every day...i still cnt get the ans
so i going to google to search...
then--> "爱，是幸福的。爱，是伟大的。爱，是自私的。爱，是痛苦的…"
讲完了咯..幸福,痛苦;伟大,自私
then what is true love? any different btw love and true love?
y love can make ppl feel so down or feel so happy?
my fren ans me..coz u care abt the one u love
can i dun care it? i always wanted dun care abt it...its makes me feel so hard
and i...damn hate those feelings! and those memories too...i dunno what's caused by..
maybe..they always annoying me, every day every time...feel i'll become a mad soon
so...i always find the better way to overcome it...
but...the more i think abt it the more i hate it...those feeling is enough to me, although i dun wan think..the prob is still here...i haven't overcame it

some ppl may say...if u love jux go ahead..action la..try la
but they dunno..i prefer to hide it
this fate...i cnt to hv it...tried b'4, but no result...
then...i choose to hide it..dun wan to try it again
how many years i tried to put down...how many time i tried to put down?
5 years? 4 years? countless time...i hd tried b'4...but still same
the more stupid is...i cheated to myself..this action makes me more hate myself

GOD is too bless me...bless till i dun wan something like tat..
can i jux forget it? like i said b'4...forget my pay in love, forget all those things
if can, i really will do it

~Happy New Year 2011~

my 1st time countdown was gv for 2011 at Desa Park City last night...
was so many ppl at there...my fren's boy fren fetched us going there
saw many fren at there and my senior too...some of them i didn't meet again since they graduated..
However, even i saw them...they oso didn't see me..nvm, i dun mind it..coz i'm not really close vf them. Apart from this..i oso saw someone at there..vf his fren, taking some photo...but he didn't see me oso...
the feeling was very different...countdown vf fren at the same place even there were many ppl i dunno oso
every years..i oso countdown at home..no changed..i tot this year would be same too..and i tot i would countdown vf my Final Fantasy VIII...
but my fren asked me at the last 4 hours..and after i got my dad's permission..i went there vf my fren..
after the fireworks..my fren fetched us went back home..we started the car around12.45am...when we went out from Park City, already 1.00++am...coz traffic jam..
was damn tired when i back home...2.00a.m i arrived my home..my family was asleep and my head...headache again ><''
every end of the year...i would write my diary, recorded every things abt happy and unhappy..but i hd missed to write end of 2010

lastly...Happy New Year and happy always to my frens and family and me too!! My new year wish...i hope can get more happiness in this year...and i always wanted such life
another me told me tat...juz forget those unhappy things, juz let them pass...leave them in 2010
2011...i want more different and more happy than last year!