Saturday, February 11, 2012

Result

Finally I got my sem1 result yesterday...

GPA=3.91
CGPA=3.43

Satisfied with my GPA, but I don't satisfy with my CGPA...
The moment I got my result, I got no feeling...felt nothing...but then, felt that a little bit disappointed, I don't really satisfy with my CGPA point.
Then, I asked my self...
"how do I increase my CGPA point?"
"if my GPA point is dropped in this semester, next semester some more my future semester...how my CGPA point will become?"
Then...I heard a sound, "he" said...
"4.0 in your each semester"
yup...this is what I should do, the only one way to increase my point and it is also my promise.

Should I tell you my sem1 result??

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

-That man,那个男人-

한 남자가 그대를 사랑합니다
有个男人爱着你
그 남자는 열심히 사랑합니다
那个男人努力地爱着你
매일 그림자처럼 그대를 따라다니며
每天像影子一样跟着你
그 남자는 웃으며 울고있어요
那个男人微笑着哭了
얼마나 얼마나 더 너를
还需要多久 多久
이렇게 바라만 보며 혼자
一直这样 只是 独自地 凝望着你
이 바람같은 사랑
这如风般的爱
이 거지같은 사랑 계속해야 니가 나를 사랑 하겠니
这乞丐般的爱 继续下去 你会爱上我吗
조금만 가까이 와 조금만
稍微靠近我一点 就一点
한발 다가가면 두 발 도망가는
靠近一步 却又逃开两步
널 사랑하는 난
爱着你的我
지금도 옆에 있어
现在依然就在你身边
그 남잔 웁니다
他在哭

그 남자는 성격이 소심합니다
那个男人的性格很谨慎
그래서 웃는 법을 배웠답니다
因此要学习微笑的方法
친한 친구에게도 못하는 얘기가 많은
有很多对好朋友也不能说的话
그 남자의 마음은 상처투성이
那个男人的心充满泪水
그래서 그 남자는 그댈
因为那个男人像以前一样
널 사랑 했데요 똑같아서
深爱着你
또 하나같은 바보 또 하나같은 바보
像傻瓜一样 像傻瓜一样
한번 나를 안아주고 가면 안되요
就一次 抱抱我再走可以吗
난 사랑받고 싶어 그대여
我想得到你的爱
매일 속으로만 가슴 속으로만 소리를 지르며
每天只在心里 只在内心大声呼喊
그 남자는 오늘도 그 옆에 있데요
那个男人今天还在你的身边
남자가 나라는 걸 아나요
你知道那个男人是我吗

알면서도 이러는 건 아니죠
不会是明明知道却还这样吧
모를꺼야 그댄 바보니까
你不会知道的 因为你是傻瓜
얼마나 얼마나 더 너를
还需要多久 多久
이렇게 바라만 보며 혼자
一直这样 只是 独自地 凝望着你
이 바보같은 사랑 이 거지같은 사랑
这如风般的爱 这乞丐般的爱
계속해야 니가 나를 사랑 하겠니
继续下去 你会爱上我吗
조금만 가까이 와 조금만
稍微靠近我一点 就一点
한발 다가가면 두 발 도망가는
靠近一步 却又逃开两步
널 사랑하는 난 지금도 옆에 있어
爱着你的我 现在依然就在你身边
그 남잔 웁니다
他在哭


突然心血来潮想发首歌词。
[那个男人],知道这首歌的人应该不少吧,但应该大部分的人都是听杨宗纬唱的吧?
老实说,我没听过杨宗纬唱的版本...但我知道有这首歌。
只是在某天的某个电视频道听到韩文版的[那个男人],才知道原来这首歌是一部韩剧(秘密花园)里的歌曲,而唱这首歌的是玄彬...后来是杨宗纬翻唱。
听了韩版的再去听听杨宗纬唱的,发现我还是比较喜欢玄彬唱的那个版本。

最近都比较喜欢听那些自己听不懂语言的歌曲(日,韩),反而那些听得懂的吸引不到我。==

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Doraemon World 2012

Went to Genting Heights with my dear friend and her sister in this morning purposely just to get the doraemon touch 'n go card.
And finally...I GOT IT! hahaha ^^

Today is last day to get the card, and quite many people there...and their aim also same with us I think...

Have a long long time I didn't go to Genting already...almost 8 years.
Got a bit cold...but I was enjoyed the feeling...felt great.

Touch 'n Go...how many touch 'n go card I got? erm....5 cards i got, and this doraemon touch 'n go is my 5th touch 'n go card...how come I got sooooooo many this card?
Got two are from college, but I just used one only, other one is rarely using...another one I was bought from the bus before I got the card from the college, but now didn't use cause the touch 'n go card given by college is no need top up by me, so is enough for only using that...those top up money is given by college. Another one is only for bus...but I never used.




And...hey! Eveline...I bought something for you, something specially for you only...hei hei hei XD

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

人性,人心。

“水信无分于东西,无分于上下乎?人性之善也,犹水之就下也。人无有不善,水无有不下。今夫水,搏而跃之,可使过颡;激而行之,可使在山。是岂水之性哉? 其势则然也。人之可使为不善,其性亦犹是也。” --出于孟子《孟子·告子上》--

常会听人说“人性本善”。
但何为“善”?我真的很好奇,不...应该是说我很怀疑。
我该赞同这句话吗?或许吧。而这个“或许”也只用在小孩的身上。

我不知道“人性,人心”对于其他人有什么样的看法,但对我而言...我只会用两个字来形容,“恐怖” “可怕”。
是老天爷在提醒着我这些事情吗?在提醒着我...“人心根本不可信”。
我实在看到太多太多的例子了。什么背叛,欺骗,双面人都有。
讽刺的是,就连亲人都可以那样对待你。或许我应该说清楚一些,严格来说是表兄弟姐妹的那种“亲人”。
突然间有种觉得很可笑的感觉,那就是“虚伪”。
虚伪在,某些人在有事时才会找对方帮忙,但在没事时却在别人背后捅一刀。这是笑里藏刀的另一种说法吧。或也可以说是双面人。

“人,善于伪装,善于说谎。”
“你不应该用真心来对待每个人,因为你所付出的不一定会得到同等的回报。更别奢望别人会像你对他那样一样地对自己好。”
自从我看到那些例子之后,我就常常用这两句话提醒自己,我不会对任何人讲真心....除了那些我应该对他们好的人和我想对他好的人。而我也相信,他们绝对感受得到。
或许,我也该向他们学学,学习该如何伪装。
套一句某人曾经所说过的话“如果你不尊重他人,休想我尊重你。”
同样地,我也想说这句话“如果你不尊重他人,休想我尊重你!”

我始终相信“善有善抱,恶有恶报,不是不报,时辰未到,时辰一到,一定要报。”这句话。
重点是“不是不报,时辰未到”这句....走着瞧吧,老天有眼的。


我不知道有谁会看我的部落或看到这篇文章,我只是纯粹想表达下自己的想法。

严重申明:请别那么自恋,自己对号入座!

Friday, January 20, 2012

--中学生涯的回忆--

昨天突然和朋友聊起了自己在中学时期所发生的一些事情。
发现到,原来每个人的中学生涯中所发生的事情都会有个共同点的。。。那就是被老师罚。
而那些回忆对我来说,真的很棒。我相信每个人在中学毕业后。。。再回想起以前发生的事情,都会有同样的感觉,对吧?
事实上,我根本就不喜欢我就读的那间中学。我还记得那天,第一天我站在学校大门时的感觉。。。那就是讨厌,也不知道为什么。不过,虽然讨厌了它整整5年,但是它确实带给我非常多很棒的回忆。
曾经做过的一些事情,在回想起来的时候,虽然偶尔会觉得很愚蠢。。。但是嘴角还是会不知觉得上扬。
常在想,要是我不是这间学校的学生,要是我没遇见那一班现在的好朋友,要是我没遇见他。。。或许就不会有现在的我,又或许我的人生观会不同吧。

我最棒的回忆(1):刚开始升上中学的第一年。
那个。。。是个甜甜带点青涩的回忆,但也是个秘密,所以不说,跳过。

我最棒的回忆(2): 升上中学的第三年。
参加了我人生第一次的生活营,也是最后一次的生活营。
三天两夜都在学校度过的生活营。
"冰释前嫌"是我最大的收获,而那三天两夜的旅程更是我5年以来另一个最美好的回忆。

生活营的第一晚


第二天下午,最爽的一个游戏。


最后一天,大合照。基本上,当天有许多人都非常依依不舍,结果都哭了。


我最棒的回忆(3):也是升上中学的第三年。
这个嘛。。。不说,跳过!

我最棒的回忆(4): 升上中学的第四年。
我升上中四了!也升班了。
不过没有特别开心的事,有的只是悲伤。。。更是最不愉快的一年。但我明白到什么叫做珍惜,什么叫做遗憾。

我最棒的回忆(5): 升上中学的第五年,也是最后一年。
终于毕业了!那天所有人都带了自己的相机去拍照留念。

事实上,我最喜欢的还是我刚开始升上中学第一年的那段回忆,它是我最美的回忆吧。
五年就这样度过了。

Thursday, January 12, 2012

--the source of the motivation--

Just feel that...I get a lot of motivation to study, and they are just came so suddenly.
First one I got is from my bro...he said if I get at least 3.0 for my cgpa he will treat me eat whatever I want. So since that time he told me such thing...3.0 already became my minimum mark, I'm always telling myself..."you only can get AT LEAST 3.0, you can't get less than 3.0 for your gpa mark in every sem". However, as time goes by...the self-demanded has been improved, wish that can get at least 3.5...if can I really wish to get 4.0 for my gpa and cgpa.

Second one I got is from my friend...almost same thing she said to me. At least 3.0...sometimes
she will change to at least 3.5.
Third one...International Medical University (IMU)! The only one uni that I wish I can continue my degree at there. For them...the minimum entry requirement is 2.8 cgpa something, some more...have to take muet exam before you enter. O.o wow...muet! This is what form 6 students have to study. It may hard for me...better prepare now, and better to get band 5 (at least band 4).

Fourth, I got it from someone ^^ and feel most happy to hear that. But his demands is most higher...3.9 for my second sem and 4.0 is started from my third sem. >< (xxx, how come your demand is so high?)
Although has a bit hard to achieve that, but still feeling good to hear that. At least he's still has some demand to me. Yet...I won't make him disappointed again like before.

Zi Yan...you can! Just trust your self! ok?



Sunday, January 8, 2012

失望

"太过失望只因为太过期待。"
一直以来,我最讨厌的就是失望的感觉。
所以,我从不抱着期待去对待一件事情。
一直到星期五那天,我再次地尝到了这种讨人厌的感觉。
你知道吗?我真的很失望的。本来约好了出来见面的,你却失约....在等你的同时,我一直在说服自己,一直对自己说"你会来的",结果呢?收到了你的信息,要我不要等了....你会迟点到KL。那时候,我失望了一次。
买好了的戏票,我简直就想直接撕烂它,可我没做。后来你说回来会来载我,让我从新点燃了期待....可是后来你却说没车用。这次,我第二次失望了。
你知道我有多期待那天的到来吗?难得你可以出来陪我。两次....我在一天里面失望了两次了。我生气,那又怎样?你根本就不懂,我知道不能怪你....那不是你的错。可你却好像没一回事那样,一直向我拿你要的那样东西。你或许没在乎过我真正的感受,我要的不是那些。或许,那天我不该有任何的期待,不应该期待着能跟你见面...那样,我就不会像个傻瓜那样,傻傻地等了几个小时得到的却是让自己失望的结果。