my life...end up on today...
however...
my new life is coming soon...
although i'm not satisfied for my result..
but..
i still want to spend my life...
no any reasons to make me feeling down and sad...even regret!
that's my result! I should be responsible for what i did before...!
"look forward, don't look at back"
i always told myself this...
the only one i can do is accepted...facing it!
at least...
i got 1A...
passed my SPM...
you all are perfect...
somemore, too perfect for me....
i felt very stress when i facing all of you....
sometime....i would feel very down when i got my poor result...
i always told myself...
i want to get a good result as yours...
but...i didn't..even i tried my best..
it's still likes a SHIT!
sorry....
maybe, i made you disappointed again...
or...you already felt it's nothing anymore..
i didn't get 10A...even 5A also no...
and sorry to me....
i forgot what i'd promised to myself before...
this result i got...is just because of this...
i didn't do it...and didn't do well in exam
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
SPM result
i got my result....
well...not satisfied..
failed 2 subjects...1A
that's my science...i got A
sejarah and moral...failed..
moody...
scare that i can't apply collage..
how about F6??
wow...this course really CHALLENGING for me..
........
i'm sleepy..and moody..
congz to those straight A students...and congz to me for 1A =.=
well...not satisfied..
failed 2 subjects...1A
that's my science...i got A
sejarah and moral...failed..
moody...
scare that i can't apply collage..
how about F6??
wow...this course really CHALLENGING for me..
........
i'm sleepy..and moody..
congz to those straight A students...and congz to me for 1A =.=
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
~tomorrow~23/3
.............
how's the important day for us(SPM candidates 2010) on tomorrow?
well...
it's really important!!
GOD...PLEASE BLESS ME!!><
(pray hard)
finally....
it's coming...
as i hope...
wished this day could come faster...
will i get A?
how many A will i get??
maybe....NO!
will i fail??
hoe many subject(s) will i fail???
maybe.....n subject(s)
oh....please!!
DON'T fail...I CAN'T fail!!
wish me GOOD LUCK!
how's the important day for us(SPM candidates 2010) on tomorrow?
well...
it's really important!!
GOD...PLEASE BLESS ME!!><
(pray hard)
finally....
it's coming...
as i hope...
wished this day could come faster...
will i get A?
how many A will i get??
maybe....NO!
will i fail??
hoe many subject(s) will i fail???
maybe.....n subject(s)
oh....please!!
DON'T fail...I CAN'T fail!!
wish me GOOD LUCK!
Sunday, March 20, 2011
2 more days
just left 2 more days...
i'll get my spm result..
wish that day can come faster...
but, i'm scare too..
scare i can't achieve my target...
hope that at least all pass...but i don't have confidence..
the first one...history, i think this would be the first subject i failed..
second is perdagangang...
and...etc..
maybe...no A
maths? i don't ever want to talk about it...
my only hope...science..made silly mistake in paper 2
However...
i already did my best...
like add maths..
i didn't try to answer it till last minutes in my exam before..
spm was exception..
don't know why....
i really don't have confidence..
sejarah, moral, perdagangang, account..
even bm...don't have confidence at all..
how's the result i'll get?
at least 5C(but i hope that at least all will get C or above) ...include bm and bi..
other 2 subjects...maths and science are already in my hand..
other 1 subject...i don't know, maybe bc
what i can do on now is pray hard..
after that, apply collage..
Tarc is the first one i chosen...
many friends asked me why you'll choose to study in tarc?
mostly, i would answer them..
tarc more cheaper..
yup..that is my answer..
the closer the day to get result, the more the things i have to bother...
it's seems all comes suddenly..
the first thing i'm bothering is my result..
the second one is...
A-levels? diploma?
for me, A-levels is challenging...
i need to do more effort from first day i start to study...
more knowledge i'll get..
and save 1 year after graduated can straight away to study degree if compare with diploma..
but, A-levels is hard...that's why i said it's challenging for me..
depends on my spm result...
if i can..i'll choose to study A-levels..
actually....
i like to challenge...^^
i'll get my spm result..
wish that day can come faster...
but, i'm scare too..
scare i can't achieve my target...
hope that at least all pass...but i don't have confidence..
the first one...history, i think this would be the first subject i failed..
second is perdagangang...
and...etc..
maybe...no A
maths? i don't ever want to talk about it...
my only hope...science..made silly mistake in paper 2
However...
i already did my best...
like add maths..
i didn't try to answer it till last minutes in my exam before..
spm was exception..
don't know why....
i really don't have confidence..
sejarah, moral, perdagangang, account..
even bm...don't have confidence at all..
how's the result i'll get?
at least 5C(but i hope that at least all will get C or above) ...include bm and bi..
other 2 subjects...maths and science are already in my hand..
other 1 subject...i don't know, maybe bc
what i can do on now is pray hard..
after that, apply collage..
Tarc is the first one i chosen...
many friends asked me why you'll choose to study in tarc?
mostly, i would answer them..
tarc more cheaper..
yup..that is my answer..
the closer the day to get result, the more the things i have to bother...
it's seems all comes suddenly..
the first thing i'm bothering is my result..
the second one is...
A-levels? diploma?
for me, A-levels is challenging...
i need to do more effort from first day i start to study...
more knowledge i'll get..
and save 1 year after graduated can straight away to study degree if compare with diploma..
but, A-levels is hard...that's why i said it's challenging for me..
depends on my spm result...
if i can..i'll choose to study A-levels..
actually....
i like to challenge...^^
Saturday, March 19, 2011
love and like
i was wondering...
what's the different between "love" and "like"
someone said "there are no different..."love" and "like" are equal."
but, for me...aren't!
i always knew that, something different between both of these feeling...
but, i couldn't find the answer..
finally...
i knew it,
i found the answer...
at the same time, i knew that which type of the boy i wanted
all my friends already in a relationship...
some of them at least already 1 year...the better one, 2 years
my friend asked me...when you only start your relationship?
seriously,
i wished to have one...but, i'm not ready to start it...
at least not now...i'm already tired with it
i know what should i do...
give up and stop all those happen
what's the different between "love" and "like"
someone said "there are no different..."love" and "like" are equal."
but, for me...aren't!
i always knew that, something different between both of these feeling...
but, i couldn't find the answer..
finally...
i knew it,
i found the answer...
at the same time, i knew that which type of the boy i wanted
all my friends already in a relationship...
some of them at least already 1 year...the better one, 2 years
my friend asked me...when you only start your relationship?
seriously,
i wished to have one...but, i'm not ready to start it...
at least not now...i'm already tired with it
i know what should i do...
give up and stop all those happen
Sunday, March 13, 2011
小说里不完美的结局
我总以为小说里的结局都是完美的，
虽然每个故事大纲不同, 但至少在结局里男女主角肯定会在一起。
不过，看来我好象错了
看了十多本的小说故事，有两本故事的结局并不是我想得那样完美。
结局里，男女主角并没在一起，因为男主角因病而死去。
那两本书提醒了我，这个世界有很多事情本来就不完美，也不会完美...
就连小说也不例外。
不知道是作者写的太好，太会牵动读者的心，还是自己哭点低，
差不多每个故事都能够看到
哭。
就当作是发泄的途径吧，
虽然不是很喜欢看那样种类的故事，
可是偶尔还会想要找点情绪，让自己哭一下，爽个够。
反正又不是什么伤心的事情才哭，
没有心痛，也不会有伤心，
那只不过是被作者带动到情绪而已，
所以就那么一下，就没事了。
总之，
我会无时无刻地提醒自己...
这个世界并不完美，也不会完美...没有东西是完美的。
好像...有很多事情都要记在脑海里，都要提醒自己
是的...的确还有一件事，
多亏电话里那些信息没被删除掉，
它们提醒了我一件事，告诉了我该怎么做。
要不是那晚无聊没事做，就不会看回以前的信息，
如果不是那样，我想我应该忘记了那些话了吧？！
虽然每个故事大纲不同, 但至少在结局里男女主角肯定会在一起。
不过，看来我好象错了
看了十多本的小说故事，有两本故事的结局并不是我想得那样完美。
结局里，男女主角并没在一起，因为男主角因病而死去。
那两本书提醒了我，这个世界有很多事情本来就不完美，也不会完美...
就连小说也不例外。
不知道是作者写的太好，太会牵动读者的心，还是自己哭点低，
差不多每个故事都能够看到
哭。就当作是发泄的途径吧，
虽然不是很喜欢看那样种类的故事，
可是偶尔还会想要找点情绪，让自己哭一下，爽个够。
反正又不是什么伤心的事情才哭，
没有心痛，也不会有伤心，
那只不过是被作者带动到情绪而已，
所以就那么一下，就没事了。
总之，
我会无时无刻地提醒自己...
这个世界并不完美，也不会完美...没有东西是完美的。
好像...有很多事情都要记在脑海里，都要提醒自己
是的...的确还有一件事，
多亏电话里那些信息没被删除掉，
它们提醒了我一件事，告诉了我该怎么做。
要不是那晚无聊没事做，就不会看回以前的信息，
如果不是那样，我想我应该忘记了那些话了吧？！
Giant Beast
just watched Giant Beast on this Thursday with my friends...
....this movie...made me felt damn giddy! Especially in beginning...
1 and half hour in cinema, i didn't feel well at all...><
i think that was first time i felt that i wanna vomit and headache in cinema...
at the end...all death, only one (two) survivor...
then, my conclusion is...boring..so boring...very boring...
giddy..so giddy...very giddy...
....this movie...made me felt damn giddy! Especially in beginning...
1 and half hour in cinema, i didn't feel well at all...><
i think that was first time i felt that i wanna vomit and headache in cinema...
at the end...all death, only one (two) survivor...
then, my conclusion is...boring..so boring...very boring...
giddy..so giddy...very giddy...
Monday, March 7, 2011
my future，my dream...my direction
how many months that i used to find my direction...
how many months that i lost myself?
4 months..or else 5 months...?
i dunno know and i dun mind...i just know it...I ALREADY FOUND MY DIRECTION!
is feeling great for this...i know what to do in my future life.
I'll do my effort...try to get a flying colour result...
who says most of the Cancer doesn't have aspirations?
Then, i want to be a successful person in most of them..^^
haha...that is my wish. i dunwan to have another regret in my life anymore..
it's enough for me, i already have 4 different things to make me feel regret...
my body skin...finally healing a bit...
it's just ordinary rash...8 months already!
its started coming out since last year...
though it was nothing, would get recovered in 1 month or else at least 1 week..
but i was wrong..it was became terrible after my SPM exam...
it came out more and more from my wind to my neck...
though maybe is skin sensitive with the soap...
asked my mom to change another product...but it was still not used..
it was very scary when i saw it...though maybe is my skin got problem
finally till one day i went to a clinic nearby...
doctor said it's just ordinary rash, dun too worry..
and he gave me an ointment, apply 2 times a day..
and now...it's not really red like before..but still got some spot on my wind and neck
fortunately...it is not itchy and pain..
today, i went to tesco to meet my primary skul fren...
she changes a lot...pretty.
we just sat in the food court..and she just introducing what kind of the job she's doing now..
but, why i felt like i fall into a trap?
i though she's just introducing her job...however, she asked me wanna join this job or not..
actually...i dun really want to join..the job is like a project..
is a governments project..and just helping to publicize the program..called score A..
erm...it's a education program..i think it is seems like tuition...
how many moneys u can earn is depends on how many persons that u publicize and success to ask them to join u...the more persons to join u..the more moneyssss u get...
but i'm still cant believe to this...ya, got governments support...
but it's like a business...u want to give them money then only can join them (i think it is for buying a card, i already forget what card is it)...
the most cheaper price..RM800..if no wrong..
but the money u can earn is can rise to 10k per one month if u pay 100% effort in this job...
walau...one month can earn 10k...
who dunwan?? and the most important it is only part time job..but, if u..can u believe it??
i dunno why i got a bit dun like it..
maybe i dun like has a people intro somethings in front of me and ask me wanna join or not.
how many months that i lost myself?
4 months..or else 5 months...?
i dunno know and i dun mind...i just know it...I ALREADY FOUND MY DIRECTION!
is feeling great for this...i know what to do in my future life.
I'll do my effort...try to get a flying colour result...
who says most of the Cancer doesn't have aspirations?
Then, i want to be a successful person in most of them..^^
haha...that is my wish. i dunwan to have another regret in my life anymore..
it's enough for me, i already have 4 different things to make me feel regret...
my body skin...finally healing a bit...
it's just ordinary rash...8 months already!
its started coming out since last year...
though it was nothing, would get recovered in 1 month or else at least 1 week..
but i was wrong..it was became terrible after my SPM exam...
it came out more and more from my wind to my neck...
though maybe is skin sensitive with the soap...
asked my mom to change another product...but it was still not used..
it was very scary when i saw it...though maybe is my skin got problem
finally till one day i went to a clinic nearby...
doctor said it's just ordinary rash, dun too worry..
and he gave me an ointment, apply 2 times a day..
and now...it's not really red like before..but still got some spot on my wind and neck
fortunately...it is not itchy and pain..
today, i went to tesco to meet my primary skul fren...
she changes a lot...pretty.
we just sat in the food court..and she just introducing what kind of the job she's doing now..
but, why i felt like i fall into a trap?
i though she's just introducing her job...however, she asked me wanna join this job or not..
actually...i dun really want to join..the job is like a project..
is a governments project..and just helping to publicize the program..called score A..
erm...it's a education program..i think it is seems like tuition...
how many moneys u can earn is depends on how many persons that u publicize and success to ask them to join u...the more persons to join u..the more moneyssss u get...
but i'm still cant believe to this...ya, got governments support...
but it's like a business...u want to give them money then only can join them (i think it is for buying a card, i already forget what card is it)...
the most cheaper price..RM800..if no wrong..
but the money u can earn is can rise to 10k per one month if u pay 100% effort in this job...
walau...one month can earn 10k...
who dunwan?? and the most important it is only part time job..but, if u..can u believe it??
i dunno why i got a bit dun like it..
maybe i dun like has a people intro somethings in front of me and ask me wanna join or not.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
以前与现在
刚刚，看回之前的部落格所写的东西...我发现，那时候的我真的很....天真。我想除了“天真”这个形容词应该没有更好的形容词来形容那时的我了...
在文章里...完全感觉不到任何的烦恼跟悲伤。
突然间，觉得那时候的自己很像某个人...那个人的性格给我的感觉还蛮像以前的自己的。至于是谁，很抱歉，我不说...也不想说。要知道就慢慢猜吧。
变了。
应该是在中四那年发生的那件事吧，改变了我。
不再像以前那样...可能是件好事吧，在另一方面来说...就是成熟了。
我很好奇，为什么我给人的印象总是很安静的一个女生..
真的有那样安静吗？
...或许吧，我只是慢热而已，也可以说...我不怎么爱说话。
可小时候的我却是特别爱说话，小学二跟三年纪的级任老师都对我印象特别深刻的。
每次拿成绩的时候都被老师向妈妈投诉。
我记得跟过一个朋友说过这件事，她却说我一点也不像是那样的学生。
的确不像。因为上了中学之后慢慢地开始就不爱说话了。
现在，也一样...只是变得特别爱想东西...
好想回到去小学六年纪..
那时候，发生了一件我永远都不会忘记的事情。
我只能用“疯狂”来形容...
我第一次亲眼看见两个女生在我班打起架来。
当时她们给我的感觉就只有三个字可以形容...那就是“母老虎” (简单来说就是拔头发, 用指甲爪对方)
都是我表妹惹的祸...
我想那件事情真的令到我们班的级任很头痛吧?
两个班级都不爽对方...那件事，还真有趣。
现在偶尔还会和我表妹提起以前的事情。感觉真棒，不是因为表妹惹的祸，而是觉得人与人之间有个共同的回忆，在那么多年以后想回那些以前所发生的事情...感觉上，以前真的很幼稚又好笑，但却很是一个很棒的回忆录。那时她的举动还真大胆，粗口.....一流！（但，只会在班上或学校里听到）...不过现在，淑女一个。人家说“女大十八变”...还真是说得没错。
在文章里...完全感觉不到任何的烦恼跟悲伤。
突然间，觉得那时候的自己很像某个人...那个人的性格给我的感觉还蛮像以前的自己的。至于是谁，很抱歉，我不说...也不想说。要知道就慢慢猜吧。
变了。
应该是在中四那年发生的那件事吧，改变了我。
不再像以前那样...可能是件好事吧，在另一方面来说...就是成熟了。
我很好奇，为什么我给人的印象总是很安静的一个女生..
真的有那样安静吗？
...或许吧，我只是慢热而已，也可以说...我不怎么爱说话。
可小时候的我却是特别爱说话，小学二跟三年纪的级任老师都对我印象特别深刻的。
每次拿成绩的时候都被老师向妈妈投诉。
我记得跟过一个朋友说过这件事，她却说我一点也不像是那样的学生。
的确不像。因为上了中学之后慢慢地开始就不爱说话了。
现在，也一样...只是变得特别爱想东西...
好想回到去小学六年纪..
那时候，发生了一件我永远都不会忘记的事情。
我只能用“疯狂”来形容...
我第一次亲眼看见两个女生在我班打起架来。
当时她们给我的感觉就只有三个字可以形容...那就是“母老虎” (简单来说就是拔头发, 用指甲爪对方)
都是我表妹惹的祸...
我想那件事情真的令到我们班的级任很头痛吧?
两个班级都不爽对方...那件事，还真有趣。
现在偶尔还会和我表妹提起以前的事情。感觉真棒，不是因为表妹惹的祸，而是觉得人与人之间有个共同的回忆，在那么多年以后想回那些以前所发生的事情...感觉上，以前真的很幼稚又好笑，但却很是一个很棒的回忆录。那时她的举动还真大胆，粗口.....一流！（但，只会在班上或学校里听到）...不过现在，淑女一个。人家说“女大十八变”...还真是说得没错。
......
..我...
到底想的是什么？
到了现在，我还是不清楚。
我不知道为什么我要这样做，即使我很清楚那是不对的。
那是喜欢吗?
还是...
只是喜欢被需要的感觉?
我得到的结论是...
可能在很早之前就已经忘了喜欢的感觉了，只是还没察觉到。
偶尔的在乎，偶尔的紧张...却似乎少了一样东西。
心动。
没了心动，却会紧张还会在乎，那是一种习惯吗？
有的时候，我会问..为什么就不肯面对自己的感情？
可是，我就连自己在想什么都不知道，又要怎样去面对？
..我...
到底想的是什么？
到了现在，我还是不清楚。
我不知道为什么我要这样做，即使我很清楚那是不对的。
那是喜欢吗?
还是...
只是喜欢被需要的感觉?
我得到的结论是...
可能在很早之前就已经忘了喜欢的感觉了，只是还没察觉到。
偶尔的在乎，偶尔的紧张...却似乎少了一样东西。
心动。
没了心动，却会紧张还会在乎，那是一种习惯吗？
有的时候，我会问..为什么就不肯面对自己的感情？
可是，我就连自己在想什么都不知道，又要怎样去面对？
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